Maybe I could soar you know fly high in the sky towards freedom. Life promises you a lot of false promises that only seem to tear you down once you've gotten so deep. This world is so twisted and you know from a person who only tends to see the destruction of the world yet when I see people I see the good in them. It's backwards I know but I end up destroying myself. I was like a common day Rahab and you know I wonder what happened to her to get her so deep into the point where money weighed for a better price for her body. She was sold for a quick piece of change. I wonder if once she was free when God saved her did she see the darkness in everyman because everyman has a price. They can be bought I've seen married men they even have a price, police officers, people you would never expect lay down with a trapped little girl in the body of a woman just for a quick fix of pleasure. It's sad to just look into a soul and see things and at some point I wish I didn't feel this way but Yeah you can say it i have become bitter. Hearing stories of molestation,rape, sorrow pain, this world is drowning in pain. I have came to the point that the only love I believe in is the Love of God. Now alot of woman say no well once she has a man who loves her and cares that will all change no matter what even if I get a husband he will fail me to. Yet God will never fail me nor leave me nor forsake me. Some of my guy friends ask me all the time well why? Yet, If only they heard the stuff that comes out of their mouths, maybe if they didn't talk the same as the rest them maybe I would have some hope but I don't. Like everyone one is just a body, or they have no value, or they lust after others while with there girlfriend. What I do is look at the world and see a whole lot of evil and God is the light of it. So where do i just take off and spread my wings. I always just wanted to just go away to a place so far that maybe no one would notice that I was gone. That it would be just me and God and I could just break free. I could be one of those people who just don't care. I remember I use to be like that before I got saved I didnt care about anyones feelings but my own and I hurt who so ever hurt me, as well as who soever was in my life because I don't see this world as everyone else but I see it. I use to be so bad evil corrupt and the world turned its back on me labeled me a failure just another black girl destined for failure. Yet now because I have changed people cling to me the same people that if they would have known me back then would of disowned me or even did cast me out only to leave me to death. Vicious! Hated for being wrong and hated on for doing good! You never reached a hand out to help pull me up yet approach me not even knowing my story to say "we are about our business we dont have time to play games" You dont even know me you just see what my outter shell looks like you dont know where i have been where my tears havent falling why the blood use to fall from the pits of my heart. So instead I give all my problems to God and try not to let things bother me just do what God has called me to do love and watch the seasons change and the people come and go.I have nothing else to lose Ive lost everything already!